Confidence

When someone hurts you, you just feel like the world turns against you. I walked around with a cloud of dis pair and heart ache. Friends asked if I was okay, always I would say I was "fine". Really I wanted to just sit and want them to hold me as I cry, it didn't matter if we were at school or church. During these weeks every tease or comment cuts you and feels like a sliver in your heart. But I'm strong and I got past it. I am rebuilding my confidence. I am accepting the love of God and my family as a replacement for the love I was looking for. I found that I can also fake confidence even when I feel none. Slowly I will have that great confidence that I dream of. Have you ever lost yours? Has anyone ever made you feel like you're worth a million bucks? I have had both just in the last few weeks. Turn to those who truly love you. They are the ones who will tell you the full worth that God feels and gave you.

"When you are content to be simply yourself and don't compare or compete, everybody will respect you." Lao-Tzu
"Who has confidence in himself will gain the confidence of others." Leib Lazarow
I hope each one of you recognize that you are a child of God and he made you for a reason and loves you no matter what.
-Taz

Why must it hurt?

I finally got the guts to tell a guy that I like him. But instead of the wished for I like you too, I got the hurtful , Nah I like ya as a friend. But I still want to be friends with him. Why does it hurt when you open your heart to love? Paul someone once said "Love is being stupid together" and I have to say that I was being stupid and many of people I know have said that the boy was definitely dumb. Hehehehehehehe I might be bias though. Friendships seem to only be hurting me now. What can I do? How did you get over a guy?

Love takes off masks that we fear we cannot live without and know we cannot live within. James A. Baldwin

Nothing is miserable unless you think it is so. Boethius

Apparently I think this month seems misearble. I must learn to open my heart and love.
-Taz

NO TIME

I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry to all my readers. I haven't had to time to update my blog in FOREVER!! Time seems to fly away from us. Along with patience. I demand Christmas to come faster. I must see all those who left me for school, and time to hang out with friends. I wish for all those that read to forgive me and I promise I will try harder to update more often.

How can appearance really hurt love and friendship? I thought a change would be great. I cut my hair short, short, SHORT and now friends and those I have a crush on look at me as if I am a different person. But I'm not talking about a good different. Why? Why must we only remember the looks of someone? Can we not love the inside and when they leave we remember the joy they bring or the sound of their laugh instead of their face popping into our head? I hope this week we can love our friends for the right reasons. Try an memorize their laughs, sound of their voice, or maybe their favorite Quick Trip concoction . The small things in life shows who people are. I love those random moments!

Friendship... is not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything. Muhammad Ali

-Taz