Experience

Light is considered an allusion to many things. Writers say light is an allusion to knowledge, truth, purity, love, righteousness, etc. I am not a professional writer, poet, English major, or college taught at all but ideas should be fought with ideas not prejudice. I feel light can be anything. Light can be blinding, illuminating like truth and such. Light can be warmth the sun gives warming your skin. Right now in my life light is Christ and his blessings he gives. In the last couple of week I have received many blessings. My grandma had major surgery but is recovering incredibly well and we found that my cousins medical issues are nothing big and might have been caused by stress. I have gotten in contact with family members I haven't in months on one it has been years. I got to talk to my role model brother who is across the world. I am extremely blessed right now. I can only thank those who have prayed for our family, supported me, loved me, or made me smile in the last couple of weeks. It has been a roller coaster of emotions. Emotions I hate to feel. Now I promise that the next time you see me I will be smiling( that is if life goes as it has been ). I am soo ready to tackle 2009. Christ has touched my life once again with his sweet spirit. I have had such a testimony builder the last couple of months. Christ is truly light. He is truth, love, knowledge, warmth, etc. I would be nothing without him. I shall take the next step forward with Christ lighting the way. He is my light, life, and Savior. Let the New Year come!!

Let your light shine. Shine within you so that it can shine on someone else.

Oprah Winfrey

Experience is not what happens to a man; it is what a man does with what happens to him.
Aldous Huxley

Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterwards.
Vernon Sanders Law

Experience teaches only the teachable.
Aldous Huxley

Good judgment comes from experience, and experience comes from bad judgment.
Barry LePatner

Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so.
Douglas Adams

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' You must do the thing you think you cannot do.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Experience is that marvelous thing that enables you to recognize a mistake when you make it again.
Franklin P. Jones

-Taz

Finals week = BEST WEEK EVER

I know it's an oxymoron but you guys have no idea. I had the most fun at school and with friends during finals week. Seminar and 10 minute passing periods made my whole day. There were one of the few things that kept me sane from all the insane studying and testing. I mean you get to flirt with the guy you think is great makes you smile the rest of the day or it does for me. My friends are convinced this guy has brought a new me out after we talk and joke around. They say I'm all giddy and just beam. They are convinced that he likes me too but I don't think so. I think we're just friends. It's fine being friends, for now, it makes my day quite interesting. But I keep seeing him while I'm being stupid like having a snowball fight or catching me with no makeup on . Really, can he not see me when I have a great hair day or when I look super cute, NOPE! Hahahahahaha but it's always that way isn't it? ;P Other things that made my finals week bearable was AMAZING GIFTS from friends, like a plastic reindeer that poops jelly beans, the BEST SCRAPBOOK EVER of me and my BFF, a couple of fuzzy dogs, etc. I even got to hang out with my "sister". Yeah Heather, a shout out to you. YOU DA BOMB!! Do you see now?

THIS WEEK MADE ME SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Plus I got high B or an A on my finals except maybe for one, but that's great for a first time high school final week. It may have been finals week but I found my support system this week. I had an amazing week. Thank you to all that made me laugh and lifted my spirits. You really did make a difference in my week. Since I'm in a loving mood here's the ending quote with a little love theme.....

The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed. Carl Jung

All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand. Ella Wheeler Wilcox

We can only learn to love by loving. Iris Murdoch

-Taz

Don't Give Up

After reading all my blogs you could have seen that I was having terrible week after horrible week etc. I was on a downward spiral to bitterness. Well, after sharing my testimony in church things just seem to be lifted. I am still feeling hurt before I drift into the bliss of sleep but the days changed. Things started going my way, people were kinder, many things that cheer me up just happened. Snow, mint hot coco, finishing homework early so I can play the piano & flute, and of course a crush of mine talked with me for a while ( yeah I have a couple ). I do have a testimony now of how you should never give up. Even in the darkest of nights of silent tears and pain to the soul Christ lifts you up. I was given a message in seminary ( 6 am bible study for my non-LDS readers) that I couldn't stop pondering. He did bless me. Not how I would ever imagine but I was. I am eternally grateful. Things now are just looking a little more cheerful. I am on the climb up to where I was. How do I get there? CHRIST!! Friends and family can help all the ways the can but in the end I must rely on Christ and our Heavenly Father. Especially now that finals are coming up and the stress level is rising, turn more to him. With him anything is possible.

Instead of my quotes that I usually put I want to put a song that just inspired me while I was down. I imagined Christ singing this to me. It really touched my heart. It is called You Are Loved by Josh Groban.

Don't give up

It's just the weight of the world

When your heart's heavy I, I will lift it for you

Don't give up

Because you want to be heard

If silence keeps you I,

I will break it for you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

Don't give up

It's just the hurt that you hide

When you're lost inside I, I'll be there to find you

Don't give up

Because you want to burn bright

If darkness blinds you I,

I will shine to guide you

Everybody wants to be understood

Well I can hear you

Everybody wants to be loved

Don't give up

Because you are loved

You are loved Aaaah

Don't give up

Its just the weight of the world (You are loved)

Don't give up Everyone needs to be heard (Don't give up)

You are loved (You are loved - Don't give up)

~Taz

Death

This week has been STRESSFUL!! One person in my fam. came near death, another family member is having health problems, friends are being jerks, and I even lost one. Each day is a challenge. Who wants to face the world when your soul is broken? No one. I have it hurts, and you never feel at ease. Even in winter I can wear shorts outside and from the restlessness I just don't feel the wind. It seems my senses have drained away. I say I'm fine, I work fine, I feel fine but deeper I am wounded. How I heal it is unknown. I'll try. Hopefully with Christmas maybe the Christmas spirit will help it. I even was talking to my friend and admitted I feel as though the love of my family and friends is becoming casual. It doesn't work on me. I need to give love. I promise I will try. I don't want to look death in the eye again so instead I will embrace life.

Some people are so afraid do die that they never begin to live. -Henry Van Dyke

Men fear death as children fear to go in the dark; and as that natural fear in children is increased by tales, so is the other. -Francis Bacon

Carpe Diem "For we are food for worms" Seize the day and live that one and only moment.

-Taz